pembukaan dlu..
3 days ago owena ciaa and i went to GS [gading serpong] to particiapate in a computr compttion. hahah. guess what we won thrd place. hahah.
im still excitd.
the sad thing is last week one of my frnd went to d hospitl.
she got into a koma but she's conscious nw. thank God.

well. this thing came up in my mind for quiet sometime. i always feel guilty if i think about it. dnt knw why though.
ive asked this question to so many people. and i still dnt knw the answer. Why i dont give her the reaction that i should hv? people hv givn me so many diffrnt answer and some i completly disagree.
am i cold hearted?
am i tough?
or is it because i dont care? if dat is, i hate my self. dats so crule.
a person said its because i believe so i dont feel scared like everybody else. but i dnt think dat dats the reason. hmm.

owh. im sorry if i make u feel like i dont care. i do but i dont feel like crying. i wanted to cry bcause everybody else cried. i even feel like it's as if i dont hv a heart. almost everybody said its because we're nt dat close anymore. i dont feel its true. but if it is, still even 'x' cried. Nw i feel even more guilty. argh.

all i cn do is pray fr you. be strong. fight.
ill be waiting fr you.